by Angela Blaha | Aug 7, 2015 | energy, Meditation
Who am I kidding? Transformation is a lot of work, emotions fly everywhere, so many days when you have no idea is happening, feeling lost, feeling stuck, feeling like giving up!
Fortunately we all go through these times….notice I said fortunately. If we did not go through these periods of change we really would be stuck.
Summer is my time for transformation, every summer I spend time in silence and generally around water. Water seems to help me heal and is so calm and flowing, it knows what to wash away and what to bring to the surface.
This year has been no exception and my transformation has been very disruptive and long. It seems that time has flown by, I realize this statement is a cliché, but really this summer for me has disappeared with what I consider to be very little change.
I have found being in transition to be a normal part of my cycle of life in this human being. I talk about transition almost on a daily basis yet what are we really talking about?
When I am moving through a transition there is a period of feeling stuck, not knowing what that really means-feeling stuck, but it is a feeling of not knowing or understanding. Sometimes it may be based in fear of the unknown, it may also be based in high expectations and not sure if I can meet the demands or even want to.
During this time I reach out to others for help to move through the energy a bit faster but this year it seemed to hang on for what seemed to be forever. My old ways of moving through the energy did not seem to help, almost as if the practices held me in my feeling of “being stuck” even longer than usual. So I have been on a mission to create new practices by trial and error. This letting go of what I now consider old practices has opened up many opportunities to expand further than ever expected.
When the period of “feeling stuck” slowly recedes there is a feeling of new joy, this new sense of joy is renewed through glimpses of fantastic ideas, one here and there. This has always been my signal that the transformation is making a turn and that the new energy will soon find its way to a normal way of being.
My deepest finding through this transformation was that my practices were weak and that creating space for the transition to take place was what really worked. Fighting against the transformation only caused more pain, which created a sense of time moving slowly.
When I open my heart and allowed the defragging to take place, that is when time seemed to fly and then understanding and new knowledge emerged. I associated this time with defragging of a computer. In the past I used to defrag my computer, this defragging allowed time for the system to rearrange, to get rid of things that were no longer needed, to upgrade new systems and to re-categorize new and old information. That is what it is like when a period of transformation takes place and how it works.
My biggest take away from this transforming summer is: when your feeling stuck, allow yourself time, open your heart and allow space for the transformation to happen. Stop fighting against it and accept that change is moving in, after all, we are beings in a continuous state of change.
by Angela Blaha | Jul 2, 2015 | Coaching, Communication, Emotions, energy, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Wellness
It begins to rain as I sit to write this blog. Some hate rainy days; I love rainy, cloudy days as they have a tendency to make me go inward. Something I need to do right now as this creation time for me is slipping away with no real creation at hand.
As I sit with my eyes closed, I can sense the flashes of the lightening. I know the thunder will start soon and right on queue it shakes the earth with its mighty boom. The sound of thunder continues to roll through, like a mantra it encourages me to go deeper. Enticing me to spend time with my soul and to feel the wonder of the earth and all of her beauty. As the raindrops begin to fall, I hear the splashing pings on my roof, the flashes of light and thunder continue. As I take a deep breath I settle into a peaceful place where there is nothing but the sounds of nature and the quietness she brings. I notice a child like essence begin to flow out of me as I wonder what it would feel like to stomp my foot in the puddle as I did when I was younger.
As my mind begins to wonder to my list of chores Mother Nature once again sends a gentle reminder of thunder to move away from the list, to experience her beauty and further within. The birds begin to sing their song of praise and I can imagine in my mind’s eye how they are fluffing their feathers in the gentle rain as it cleanses their bodies.
As I bring my awareness to the sound of the rain drops on the roof, then on the deck, then on the leaves of the plants near by, I again notice this child like essence who wants to come out to play yet I mentally tell myself not to splash in that puddle. I play this mental game with myself with notions to splash or not to splash.
I begin to notice that I hear an entire orchestra playing, sounds of thunder and how it rolls through the sky, splashing sounds as the water hits the multitude of surfaces around me. I envision the rain cleaning and cleansing the air, removing the dust from the leaves and nurturing the earth in a way that is simply a wonder and hard to find words to create the vision I am in right now.
I am in awe of the creation of it all. I have been feeling a bit stuck lately in my creations and I wonder how I can be feeling that way when such beauty has been created right before me. I have no excuses, as I am the creator of everything I do. If Source can create such wonder for me to live in then I need not have excuses of my own creation.
Thank you mother earth for reminding me of how simple life really is and that no matter what we perceive to be happening that we can return to such simplicity at any given moment.
I give thanks to Mother Nature today, as she apparently knew I needed to go inward to where the real essence of whom I am resides. She once again has provided the opportunity to settle inward with the perfect mantra and sounds for my meditation and writings today.
by Angela Blaha | Apr 2, 2015 | energy
September 30, 2013 by Angela
I recently attended a professional college football game with some friends and family. We stayed with friends and so the energy level was filled with excitement and fun. As we proceeded to the game I began to notice energy that I was not all too familiar with. As we got closer, the energy grew stronger and stronger. I began to notice subtle changes within me, a slight headache behind my eyes, an almost nervous type of energy. I did not pay much attention to it at the time, just brushing it off as excitement.
We hung out a bit before the game and checked out what the local pre-game was all about. The energy remained the same so I did a quick cleanse, put up a shield. All the while thinking I was simply taking on everyone else’s energy.
As we entered the stadium, I felt more of a headache come on. At this point I knew I was in for a treat the rest of the day. I asked spirit to help me cleanse and tried to ground several times to no avail. I drank water, and envision myself growing roots to ground.
As the game started and the roar of the cheering fans commenced, my headache grew stronger. By half time, I had the worst headache I’ve experienced in quite some time. I felt my energy was being sucked from my body and I couldn’t control it. The competitive atmosphere was just so strong that no matter what I did, it had no affect.
While competitive energy is very useful and has its place in win or loose situations, that energy can really overcome one. After we left the thousands of fans and decided to grab a bite to eat, I thought, great food usually makes a huge difference in grounding my energies. Well even food could not help with amount of energy. Ugh. I was exhausted.
Finally, later in the evening, we packed everyone up and headed for home. Thank goodness, I was truly ready to leave. I try not to be a party pooper, but I was so exhausted. I must admit that I do not put myself in large crowds very often, nor do I attend such events because of the energy that saps my being. But this competitive energy was above everything that I could do.
Sometimes, it seems there is nothing I can do to protect yourself from certain kinds of energy. Since there were thousands of very competitive fans there I found that the energy was greater than me and that I should have thought about different types of protection before I went. A very good lesson learned!
by Angela Blaha | Dec 31, 2014 | energy, Featured Events, Uncategorized
It is important to start off your new year on a positive note!
Today I spent the day cleaning my personal space, my home. I spent a considerable amount of time de-cluttering in order to usher in the New Year. Why? Because it is a new beginning, just as you would usher in a new child into the family, a new year is a sign of new energy of new life. So do it in a grand way, just as you watch the ball drop and firework displays, so should your home or office be treated with such distinction.
Here are some recommendations for ushering in this grand new energy!
1. Today I cleaned – first I started with the clutter. I picked up everything and returned it to its rightful spot in the cupboard, closet or drawer. I cleared off my work desk in preparation for new creative energy to flow in.
2. Then I moved to the bathrooms – cleaned them until the sparkled. I washed the rugs and emptied all the trashcans.
3. Moved into the kitchen and living space – I dusted, vacuumed and scrubbed the floors.
4. Then I went to the bedroom. I de-cluttered the closets; I even threw away a few items that were tattered. Vacuumed, dusted and washed all the clothes and the sheets.
5. Then I moved outside and cleared all the snow from the front sidewalk and deck. My daughters were home for the Christmas holiday and they made ice balls to decorate for the New Year, they add a beautiful touch to the entrance.
6. When I finished with moving the old energy within the house I turned to my personal energy. Taking extra care with my daily massage with coconut oil, being sure to thank every moving part inside and outside the body. Took a little extra time with my hair and picked out some new clothes to wear for the family New Year’s Eve party we are attending tonight.
Wow! What a difference cleaning and de-cluttering makes not just on the energy flow within the house but also on the mind. Cleaning and clearing for an expansive new year, allowing abundance to flow with ease.
Tomorrow, New Years day, I will hang my 2015 calendar, try some new healthy recipes, and fill my cupboard and refrigerator with food. Bringing in the new energy with healthy, good choices helps pave the way for a very abundant year.
Now, I am off to make some of my Mom’s homemade chocolate chip cookies, a special gift for the family New Year’s party we are attending tonight.
Happy New Year to each of you! May 2015 bring you much joy, grace, happiness and most of all Love!
by Angela Blaha | Dec 18, 2014 | energy
What an expansive and magical time we are in right now. Feeling of such love, such self-expansion, so much light, so much joy and so much grace. Yet there is a feeling of too much, of struggle and possibly even pain.
So much energy flowing and moving, it’s hard to know what is up and what is down. As trying as this expansion period of transformation can be, there is a certain comfort in allowing the peaceful rest of what some may perceive as being stuck take place.
The edge of the transition comes when boredom sets in and heavy feelings of searching, trust and fogginess takes over the mind, body and spirit.
During this time we are the most vulnerable, vulnerable to others but more importantly to ourselves. The emotions are strongest during this time and feelings of struggle settle in. Creating an emotional fog that is wet and heavy, it can feel almost paralyzing in our ability to see clearly what our wants, dreams and desires really are. During this time we may find ourselves blocking any action steps we need to take to release these feelings. An expansion period can be very trying and somewhat overwhelming when we allow the energy to move too slowly.
Once the new expansive energy moves further through the emotional, physical and mental bodies, the fog burns off and we begin to release and lighten, the clarity to take the action steps has arrived. Sometimes we gather so much energy and take off with so many ideas, creating so many action steps we almost put ourselves into a tail spin.
It is the resting period that is most bothersome for many people. Having the patience to allow all this movement to take place is exhausting and can be very difficult for the mental mind. Anxiety and depression can appear, creating more havoc in the process.
One thing I do to allow the transitional energy of expansion to flow is to allow the awareness of the process to come into my energy field. I try to be hyperaware of expansive energy, mainly because I do not like the resting period as sometimes I go too far into resting only finding myself buried under a wall of resistance, never to surface again.
When I notice my energy field has this awareness of expansion I automatically go into action. Sometimes my action step is as simple as going for a walk in nature; sometime it is calling people to brainstorm. Other times my action step is creating a class around the expansion process itself, many of which sit on my bookshelf never to be seen again.
The point I am trying to make is to allow the process, but do not allow the process to get stuck. Action steps move the energy quicker, allowing less time for the fog to settle in and get comfy. Find what works for you during this very expansive energy flow that we are being graced with. Expansion is so energizing when we pay attention to it and allow it to work its magic.
