by Angela Blaha | Sep 26, 2015 | Coaching, Communication, Emotions, energy, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Spiritual, starseed, Wellness
I know for a fact that starseeds have a difficult time with the emotional body and understanding the emotions. These emotions can change a perceptive thought within a millisecond and my whole world is turned upside down.
I feel like an emotional rollercoaster sometimes!
The emotions have moves I do not understand and they do not match the logic of my left-brain. So my left and right brain seem to be in a continuous battle for control, neither of them ever wins, rather the battle continues and overtime I give up, falling deeper and deeper into the trap of separation.
As a starseed I have worked almost continuously to understand the duality of such rigorous strain on the emotional body. I have even gone into categorizing the emotions and listing the extremes of what one emotion brings to the table. Trying relentlessly to connect it to some sort of wisdom or knowledge.
Really that is all the left-brain wants is to understand the emotional body, to put some sort of knowledge to what is being felt so it can help with this experience in some way.
I have been told time and time again to remove the left-brain, the ego. To put it outside of myself so it would stop asking questions. I did this for a period of time and it seemed to obey, but what I noticed was that it kept me more in separation theory than helping me to move forward on this spiritual journey.
So I brought it back and asked it what it needed. All it told me was that it wanted to help but needed to be fed some type of knowledge to help arrange the emotions and the feeling attached to the words so healing and happiness could reside.
I seriously wondered why I did not do this earlier in my life, who would have thought to just ask? Duh!
There are many emotions that are still illusive to me and then to add to the confusion there are false words, which have no meaning and keep me in wonder what it really means or if the meaning is to keep me under a false precept? As a starseed the language combined with the emotions and explanation of the feelings keep me busy. I have a real quest to understand this human experience far greater than what is on the surface.
I love how eloquently, yet almost destructive this planet is with all of its duality. It is a complex puzzle and may feel like it will take an eternity to completely understand. Something I know the wisdom of remembering holds within its clutch. Yet, I will continue to understand the emotions and to feed the brain knowledge, all the while moving toward to a unified self.
by Angela Blaha | Sep 19, 2015 | Communication, Emotions, energy, Featured Events, Intuition, Positive Psychology, Soul, Spiritual, starseed, Wellness
Remembering who I am at the core is much more difficult than I had anticipated. I am not a patient person and so when I ask for something I want it immediately. I know I am not alone in this pursuit of immediate response, as I know you can relate.
I have learned that the remembering of love and healing comes slowly, or at least more slowly than what I want. It seems to come when I least expect it and when it comes it either comes brutally or so very kind and gentle. Either way it comes I usually get the point!
For instance I recently had a remembering when I was in Colorado. I remembered I had brought people to a sacred place in the mountains to heal. I thought I was doing a good thing, but the people I brought there apparently had an alternative motive and destruction was a part of their plan. When I remembered what had happened my emotions became carried away with my perceived actions, creating a sense in me that I had done something wrong. My perception was that Mother Earth, in its alignment with galaxies beyond this one could help heal people and their habitual patterns. What I did not take into consideration was people’s willingness to allow healing to take place. I also learned that fear will override even the best of intentions.
Since this experience in Colorado I have learned that many people really enjoy being or believing that they are victims, that what happens to them is totally out of control. They allow fear to play games with their internal wisdom, what they know deep down within them to be their truth. Creating all kinds of scenarios which are linked to past perceptions, patterns and belief systems creating a false sense of who they are.
As a starseed I know and understand that everything is within our control and that we are responsible for our thoughts, actions, words, etc. We are responsible for our own remembering of who we are at our core. In my book: Show Me How to Remember My Power through Self-love and Forgiveness”, St. Germaine reminds us to love ourselves unconditionally, no matter what we remember.
I do know for certain that I am love!
I do remember how amazing pure love is and I feel it when I channel. Sometimes it is so mesmerizing that I do not want to return from this state of being pure love as I know within my being that that feeling is what a starseed is. Pure love is the core of who we are as well as every other being, but at times I want so desperately to return to that pure love as I know it is where I belong. When I am in the moment of pure love, with the wisdom of this essence, I am home, home is not a place where I go to, rather it is a place of being.
When I remember that I am a being of love the whole dynamic of who I am changes, my response to people change, my perception about events change, the way I walk even changes. I do remember the energy of love and that is really what a starseed in a human body means to me. It does not matter what human functions I can do, rather it is a form of being.
by Angela Blaha | Sep 12, 2015 | Emotions, energy, Intuition, Soul, Spiritual, starseed
Wow!!!
I cannot believe I would label this blog with such rules as to define a starseed. We have no definition; rather we have similarities, all of which can change in a split second to something different.
If you search the Internet there are a multitude of definitions, quizzes and articles.
What I can say with certainty of a starseed is this.
I am not from Earth!
I do not feel a deep connection to earth, however I sympathize with her and what she has gone through as a planet. When I connect to her I feel her pain and suffering. I see the bloodshed, the torture and the destruction. I also see and feel how beautiful she is with her majestic abilities to create such beautiful scenes. I feel her wanting to create harmony, peace and to heal. I feel compassion for you Mother Earth and I bring you much love!
With this inner wisdom of knowing, I am not from here, I feel like there is so much information that I should be able to access. I become highly frustrated with this inner knowing and sometimes demand a clear understanding as why it is not at my beck and call. I instinctly know that I and you have the ability to access cosmic, spiritual and love energies and I believe in my being that I should be able to do so at any given time I desire.
So what is my holdup? I have searched this world and many of the people who mentor me why I cannot access this information. All I hear is either one of two answers. Why would I want such information, or all will be revealed in divine timing.
I call bullcrap!
I am a starseed who, like everyone else on this planet has access to everything. Source does not hold secrets or keep thing hidden! I just haven’t figured out how to access this Galactic/Spiritual Akashic field yet, which is my desire and goal to do by the end of this year.
As a spirit in a human body I intuitively know that we have access to the remembering of who we are. If we want all the entire gamete of information all at once or just pieces of the info, that is up to us.
When I am asked why I would even want the remembering of everything? My answer to this question is, why not? Why wouldn’t I want this information, this information for me means there is no more separation. No separation between Source and myself or anything else. It would mean what I know to be my truth that I am one with the cosmos. Who doesn’t want this information? This is my return question, and maybe I am alone in this quest but I know there is so much more and I want it all. This is very powerful stuff and if I can remember the beautiful love energy that resides at my core why wouldn’t I want this wisdom, not to mention the overwhelming emotion of pure love that I get a glimpse of when I channel.
I do not know what my holdup to accessing this information is right now, but I do feel like it will come soon, in the mean time I will continue to meditate and to ask for the remembering. And I will continue to call bullcrap as the innate being I am knows there in infinite possibilities and tapping into those possibilities is a life changer.
As a starseed or just plain ol human being I refuse to stay within the definitions of what I am suppose to be – I will conquer the wisdom in this lifetime or die trying!
