What an amazing year this will be. What will it take to create the life you deserve, no more desiring, it is time to take action. What action will you be taking?
Stop giving up your power to the world, it is time to take your power back. Are you tired of being tired?
I hope you are tired, because it is time to be visible! Step1: Being Visible may mean being vulnerable. Being vulnerable is not a negative emotion or feeling, it is very powerful. Being vulnerable is very powerful because it makes you take new action steps to create a new way of being.
I hope your tired, because it is time to be brave! Step 2: Being brave means going deep within yourself. It is time to stop looking outside of your self for answers, rather it is time to go within. You hold all the answers and those answers are found within your own vibrational intelligence. Take back your power that you have given up over the years. Go Deep within your own self!
I hope your tired, because it is time to feel united! Step 3: When we feel connected there is an inner sense of peace. Being connected with our own vibration and the vibration of the universe is very calming because there is a sense of knowing that we are here for a much greater purpose. This greater purpose cannot be felt without being innately connected with everything.
It is time to move into being the multi-dimensional being you came to earth to be. This year is a powerful year, if you use the energy as I described in last weeks blog to your advantage it will be simple to function at maximum capacity.
I know for a fact that starseeds have a difficult time with the emotional body and understanding the emotions. These emotions can change a perceptive thought within a millisecond and my whole world is turned upside down.
I feel like an emotional rollercoaster sometimes!
The emotions have moves I do not understand and they do not match the logic of my left-brain. So my left and right brain seem to be in a continuous battle for control, neither of them ever wins, rather the battle continues and overtime I give up, falling deeper and deeper into the trap of separation.
As a starseed I have worked almost continuously to understand the duality of such rigorous strain on the emotional body. I have even gone into categorizing the emotions and listing the extremes of what one emotion brings to the table. Trying relentlessly to connect it to some sort of wisdom or knowledge.
Really that is all the left-brain wants is to understand the emotional body, to put some sort of knowledge to what is being felt so it can help with this experience in some way.
I have been told time and time again to remove the left-brain, the ego. To put it outside of myself so it would stop asking questions. I did this for a period of time and it seemed to obey, but what I noticed was that it kept me more in separation theory than helping me to move forward on this spiritual journey.
So I brought it back and asked it what it needed. All it told me was that it wanted to help but needed to be fed some type of knowledge to help arrange the emotions and the feeling attached to the words so healing and happiness could reside.
I seriously wondered why I did not do this earlier in my life, who would have thought to just ask? Duh!
There are many emotions that are still illusive to me and then to add to the confusion there are false words, which have no meaning and keep me in wonder what it really means or if the meaning is to keep me under a false precept? As a starseed the language combined with the emotions and explanation of the feelings keep me busy. I have a real quest to understand this human experience far greater than what is on the surface.
I love how eloquently, yet almost destructive this planet is with all of its duality. It is a complex puzzle and may feel like it will take an eternity to completely understand. Something I know the wisdom of remembering holds within its clutch. Yet, I will continue to understand the emotions and to feed the brain knowledge, all the while moving toward to a unified self.
Remembering who I am at the core is much more difficult than I had anticipated. I am not a patient person and so when I ask for something I want it immediately. I know I am not alone in this pursuit of immediate response, as I know you can relate.
I have learned that the remembering of love and healing comes slowly, or at least more slowly than what I want. It seems to come when I least expect it and when it comes it either comes brutally or so very kind and gentle. Either way it comes I usually get the point!
For instance I recently had a remembering when I was in Colorado. I remembered I had brought people to a sacred place in the mountains to heal. I thought I was doing a good thing, but the people I brought there apparently had an alternative motive and destruction was a part of their plan. When I remembered what had happened my emotions became carried away with my perceived actions, creating a sense in me that I had done something wrong. My perception was that Mother Earth, in its alignment with galaxies beyond this one could help heal people and their habitual patterns. What I did not take into consideration was people’s willingness to allow healing to take place. I also learned that fear will override even the best of intentions.
Since this experience in Colorado I have learned that many people really enjoy being or believing that they are victims, that what happens to them is totally out of control. They allow fear to play games with their internal wisdom, what they know deep down within them to be their truth. Creating all kinds of scenarios which are linked to past perceptions, patterns and belief systems creating a false sense of who they are.
As a starseed I know and understand that everything is within our control and that we are responsible for our thoughts, actions, words, etc. We are responsible for our own remembering of who we are at our core. In my book: Show Me How to Remember My Power through Self-love and Forgiveness”, St. Germaine reminds us to love ourselves unconditionally, no matter what we remember.
I do know for certain that I am love!
I do remember how amazing pure love is and I feel it when I channel. Sometimes it is so mesmerizing that I do not want to return from this state of being pure love as I know within my being that that feeling is what a starseed is. Pure love is the core of who we are as well as every other being, but at times I want so desperately to return to that pure love as I know it is where I belong. When I am in the moment of pure love, with the wisdom of this essence, I am home, home is not a place where I go to, rather it is a place of being.
When I remember that I am a being of love the whole dynamic of who I am changes, my response to people change, my perception about events change, the way I walk even changes. I do remember the energy of love and that is really what a starseed in a human body means to me. It does not matter what human functions I can do, rather it is a form of being.
I had been anticipating much joy of my recent silent retreat for months, I couldn’t wait to be in silence, to go so deep within myself that I would become lost. This is something I had been craving for a very long time now.
Little did I know it would be so much more than just a simple craving!
I contracted strep throat infection the Friday before I left for my trip, I was so sick. It was the sickest I have been since my college years. My entire throat was white with infection; I ran a fever, headache, etc. I thought seriously about not going to the retreat as I was driving over 13 hours and I really did not want to infect others.
The morning I was scheduled to leave, I again thought I should not go, but I somehow knew and understood that this infection was my body fighting against change. Cell memory that needed to be released and healed yet was so eager to hang on to what it was comfortable with. I made the decision to pack up my clothes and to attend no matter what was trying to stop me, determined to transform even in the face of physical illness.
The first day of the retreat was zen silence, which meant no eye contact along with no talking or writing. Just being with myself. It was perfect, exactly what I was hoping for. There was no need for odd communication of any kind with total strangers. I loved every minute of it.
It was a total stripping down of myself, which was my intent. Strip away what is no longer needed or useful. I spent the day doing a lot of crying, not much thought, just being present with nature and listening to the soul.
The following days were equally as transformative, day two was spent with ridding the body of cell memory done via massage, a Lakota sweat, and lithium hot springs. I felt new again and the body felt much pleasure.
The third day was spent with healing, feeling a familiarity to Crestone, I knew I had been there before in some other life and that I needed to heal the earth and my actions of that lifetime. It all became evident with the remembering of that life and perceived actions of good will, which did not turn out that way. This day was spent with so many blessing and such deep healing with spirit, the land and myself.
Day four and five were filled with rejuvenation, stepping fully into my abilities and demonstrating them. Making new connections with soul family at the retreat and plans for the future.
It begins to rain as I sit to write this blog. Some hate rainy days; I love rainy, cloudy days as they have a tendency to make me go inward. Something I need to do right now as this creation time for me is slipping away with no real creation at hand.
As I sit with my eyes closed, I can sense the flashes of the lightening. I know the thunder will start soon and right on queue it shakes the earth with its mighty boom. The sound of thunder continues to roll through, like a mantra it encourages me to go deeper. Enticing me to spend time with my soul and to feel the wonder of the earth and all of her beauty. As the raindrops begin to fall, I hear the splashing pings on my roof, the flashes of light and thunder continue. As I take a deep breath I settle into a peaceful place where there is nothing but the sounds of nature and the quietness she brings. I notice a child like essence begin to flow out of me as I wonder what it would feel like to stomp my foot in the puddle as I did when I was younger.
As my mind begins to wonder to my list of chores Mother Nature once again sends a gentle reminder of thunder to move away from the list, to experience her beauty and further within. The birds begin to sing their song of praise and I can imagine in my mind’s eye how they are fluffing their feathers in the gentle rain as it cleanses their bodies.
As I bring my awareness to the sound of the rain drops on the roof, then on the deck, then on the leaves of the plants near by, I again notice this child like essence who wants to come out to play yet I mentally tell myself not to splash in that puddle. I play this mental game with myself with notions to splash or not to splash.
I begin to notice that I hear an entire orchestra playing, sounds of thunder and how it rolls through the sky, splashing sounds as the water hits the multitude of surfaces around me. I envision the rain cleaning and cleansing the air, removing the dust from the leaves and nurturing the earth in a way that is simply a wonder and hard to find words to create the vision I am in right now.
I am in awe of the creation of it all. I have been feeling a bit stuck lately in my creations and I wonder how I can be feeling that way when such beauty has been created right before me. I have no excuses, as I am the creator of everything I do. If Source can create such wonder for me to live in then I need not have excuses of my own creation.
Thank you mother earth for reminding me of how simple life really is and that no matter what we perceive to be happening that we can return to such simplicity at any given moment.
I give thanks to Mother Nature today, as she apparently knew I needed to go inward to where the real essence of whom I am resides. She once again has provided the opportunity to settle inward with the perfect mantra and sounds for my meditation and writings today.
