by Angela Blaha | Sep 19, 2015 | Communication, Emotions, energy, Featured Events, Intuition, Positive Psychology, Soul, Spiritual, starseed, Wellness
Remembering who I am at the core is much more difficult than I had anticipated. I am not a patient person and so when I ask for something I want it immediately. I know I am not alone in this pursuit of immediate response, as I know you can relate.
I have learned that the remembering of love and healing comes slowly, or at least more slowly than what I want. It seems to come when I least expect it and when it comes it either comes brutally or so very kind and gentle. Either way it comes I usually get the point!
For instance I recently had a remembering when I was in Colorado. I remembered I had brought people to a sacred place in the mountains to heal. I thought I was doing a good thing, but the people I brought there apparently had an alternative motive and destruction was a part of their plan. When I remembered what had happened my emotions became carried away with my perceived actions, creating a sense in me that I had done something wrong. My perception was that Mother Earth, in its alignment with galaxies beyond this one could help heal people and their habitual patterns. What I did not take into consideration was people’s willingness to allow healing to take place. I also learned that fear will override even the best of intentions.
Since this experience in Colorado I have learned that many people really enjoy being or believing that they are victims, that what happens to them is totally out of control. They allow fear to play games with their internal wisdom, what they know deep down within them to be their truth. Creating all kinds of scenarios which are linked to past perceptions, patterns and belief systems creating a false sense of who they are.
As a starseed I know and understand that everything is within our control and that we are responsible for our thoughts, actions, words, etc. We are responsible for our own remembering of who we are at our core. In my book: Show Me How to Remember My Power through Self-love and Forgiveness”, St. Germaine reminds us to love ourselves unconditionally, no matter what we remember.
I do know for certain that I am love!
I do remember how amazing pure love is and I feel it when I channel. Sometimes it is so mesmerizing that I do not want to return from this state of being pure love as I know within my being that that feeling is what a starseed is. Pure love is the core of who we are as well as every other being, but at times I want so desperately to return to that pure love as I know it is where I belong. When I am in the moment of pure love, with the wisdom of this essence, I am home, home is not a place where I go to, rather it is a place of being.
When I remember that I am a being of love the whole dynamic of who I am changes, my response to people change, my perception about events change, the way I walk even changes. I do remember the energy of love and that is really what a starseed in a human body means to me. It does not matter what human functions I can do, rather it is a form of being.
by Angela Blaha | Sep 12, 2015 | Emotions, energy, Intuition, Soul, Spiritual, starseed
Wow!!!
I cannot believe I would label this blog with such rules as to define a starseed. We have no definition; rather we have similarities, all of which can change in a split second to something different.
If you search the Internet there are a multitude of definitions, quizzes and articles.
What I can say with certainty of a starseed is this.
I am not from Earth!
I do not feel a deep connection to earth, however I sympathize with her and what she has gone through as a planet. When I connect to her I feel her pain and suffering. I see the bloodshed, the torture and the destruction. I also see and feel how beautiful she is with her majestic abilities to create such beautiful scenes. I feel her wanting to create harmony, peace and to heal. I feel compassion for you Mother Earth and I bring you much love!
With this inner wisdom of knowing, I am not from here, I feel like there is so much information that I should be able to access. I become highly frustrated with this inner knowing and sometimes demand a clear understanding as why it is not at my beck and call. I instinctly know that I and you have the ability to access cosmic, spiritual and love energies and I believe in my being that I should be able to do so at any given time I desire.
So what is my holdup? I have searched this world and many of the people who mentor me why I cannot access this information. All I hear is either one of two answers. Why would I want such information, or all will be revealed in divine timing.
I call bullcrap!
I am a starseed who, like everyone else on this planet has access to everything. Source does not hold secrets or keep thing hidden! I just haven’t figured out how to access this Galactic/Spiritual Akashic field yet, which is my desire and goal to do by the end of this year.
As a spirit in a human body I intuitively know that we have access to the remembering of who we are. If we want all the entire gamete of information all at once or just pieces of the info, that is up to us.
When I am asked why I would even want the remembering of everything? My answer to this question is, why not? Why wouldn’t I want this information, this information for me means there is no more separation. No separation between Source and myself or anything else. It would mean what I know to be my truth that I am one with the cosmos. Who doesn’t want this information? This is my return question, and maybe I am alone in this quest but I know there is so much more and I want it all. This is very powerful stuff and if I can remember the beautiful love energy that resides at my core why wouldn’t I want this wisdom, not to mention the overwhelming emotion of pure love that I get a glimpse of when I channel.
I do not know what my holdup to accessing this information is right now, but I do feel like it will come soon, in the mean time I will continue to meditate and to ask for the remembering. And I will continue to call bullcrap as the innate being I am knows there in infinite possibilities and tapping into those possibilities is a life changer.
As a starseed or just plain ol human being I refuse to stay within the definitions of what I am suppose to be – I will conquer the wisdom in this lifetime or die trying!
by Angela Blaha | Aug 20, 2015 | Coaching, Emotions, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Spiritual
I had been anticipating much joy of my recent silent retreat for months, I couldn’t wait to be in silence, to go so deep within myself that I would become lost. This is something I had been craving for a very long time now.
Little did I know it would be so much more than just a simple craving!
I contracted strep throat infection the Friday before I left for my trip, I was so sick. It was the sickest I have been since my college years. My entire throat was white with infection; I ran a fever, headache, etc. I thought seriously about not going to the retreat as I was driving over 13 hours and I really did not want to infect others.
The morning I was scheduled to leave, I again thought I should not go, but I somehow knew and understood that this infection was my body fighting against change. Cell memory that needed to be released and healed yet was so eager to hang on to what it was comfortable with. I made the decision to pack up my clothes and to attend no matter what was trying to stop me, determined to transform even in the face of physical illness.
The first day of the retreat was zen silence, which meant no eye contact along with no talking or writing. Just being with myself. It was perfect, exactly what I was hoping for. There was no need for odd communication of any kind with total strangers. I loved every minute of it.
It was a total stripping down of myself, which was my intent. Strip away what is no longer needed or useful. I spent the day doing a lot of crying, not much thought, just being present with nature and listening to the soul.
The following days were equally as transformative, day two was spent with ridding the body of cell memory done via massage, a Lakota sweat, and lithium hot springs. I felt new again and the body felt much pleasure.
The third day was spent with healing, feeling a familiarity to Crestone, I knew I had been there before in some other life and that I needed to heal the earth and my actions of that lifetime. It all became evident with the remembering of that life and perceived actions of good will, which did not turn out that way. This day was spent with so many blessing and such deep healing with spirit, the land and myself.
Day four and five were filled with rejuvenation, stepping fully into my abilities and demonstrating them. Making new connections with soul family at the retreat and plans for the future.
Many blessings to all of you!
Here is an amazing spirit photo from Crestone!
by Angela Blaha | Jul 18, 2014 | Spiritual
by: Deepak Chopra, M.D.
Without taking a poll, it’s safe to say that people who believe in God also believe that he answers prayers. If he didn’t, one would be left with an indifferent, distant deity who pays no attention to human affairs. This alternative is hard to reconcile with faith, and so believers are left with a God who seems to answer prayers selectively. It’s as if there’s an invisible telephone line to Heaven, and when you call, sometimes God picks up and sometimes he doesn’t.
I’ve simplified the scheme—the theology of prayer gets very complicated—because for most believers, praying is simple. You entreat God to do something special for you, and you take your chances. For every answered prayer, millions go unanswered. God must be a selective listener, or else there’s something wrong with the person who is praying.
Despite this frustrating and irrational setup, who hasn’t turned to prayer in times of greatest need?
To get to the heart of this question, we should start with a blank slate. Set aside your image of God as a father sitting on his throne somewhere above the clouds. Such images differ from one religion to the next and are clearly projections of the human mind validated only by cultural myths and traditions. Second, lose the notion of the invisible telephone line. If God is omnipresent, there is no distance between you and the one you pray to. Finally, strip God of all human attributes, including gender. Whatever God is, the reality must be superhuman, however you define the term.
Mundane Intentions Versus Deep Desires
In the Indian spiritual tradition, these first steps were taken thousands of years go. The slate was completely clean, and therefore one could ask the most basic question: Why does any desire come true? For a prayer is essentially a desire or intention. It differs from mundane intentions like wanting a candy bar or intending to do a good job in one thing only: the desired object seems out of reach. We invoke a superhuman power when human powers fail.
This is where the Indian sages had a brilliant thought. What if mundane intentions are not different from prayers? This possibility defies the logic of prayers if you think you are telephoning God. What links all intentions, no matter how extraordinary, is that they happen in consciousness. So the mystery of prayer turns into a more fundamental investigation into how consciousness actually works. Clearly the intention to eat a candy bar or to do a good job at work brings the mind into contact with reality in such a way that intention is connected to outcome. So why isn’t this true when you pray for a friend to recover from cancer or for peace in the Middle East?
Samyama
The answer, according to the Vedic rishis, who explored consciousness more deeply than anyone else, comes down to three aspects that enter into any intention, indeed into any thought.
- How deep into the mind is the intention coming from?
- How steady is your focus?
- How fluid is your intention?
In Sanskrit these three elements are known as Samadhi, Dharana, and Dhyana, and when all three are fused, the entire mechanism is called Samyama. There’s no need to dwell on these terms, only to point out that the success or failure of an intention depends on the effective use of one’s awareness, not on a request to a deity who may or may not be listening. Samyama basically means to bind or hold together, and when all three of these components are unified, that’s what makes for the strongest intentions. You have gone deep enough into your own self-awareness that you can affect what happens in the outer world; your intention is one-pointed rather than scattered; and your mind is steady while remaining fluid and flexible.
The Obstacles in Prayer
If this explanation is correct, it describes unanswered prayers as the product of a mind that is restless, shallow, conflicted, or unable to focus. All of us suffer from these obstacles.
Answered prayers, on the other hand, represent a kind of total clarity that may come at any moment, like the sudden parting of the clouds, and at such a moment the mechanism that fulfills intentions works smoothly. Although Samyama is identified in the tradition of Yoga as a high attainment, it seems reasonable to say that the same mechanism exists in everyday consciousness. After all, to live is to carry out intentions.
Once you understand how the mechanism works, you have a choice. You can meditate or pursue other spiritual techniques that bring the three elements of intentionality together. The results will not be the same on every path. Some people will experience a prayer coming true, others will be able to live in the present moment, and others still may feel that they are connected to God.
As straightforward as this description of intentions is, it gives rise to its own questions, which we’ll explore in the next post. To be continued …
by Angela Blaha | Mar 25, 2014 | Spiritual
My family has been touched by death yet again. Within the last year and a half I have lost three parents. Both of my parents and now my husband’s father. Each time death has been so different. One death totally unexpected and two we knew were coming, yet one is never really prepared for the final breath.
With each death I ask, what am I to learn? I am not afraid of death, in fact I am somewhat excited for their rebirth and the freeing of this body. It is very hard to watch people suffer, and it really doesn’t matter if it is their body suffering or mental pain, watching suffering takes a toll on the living as well as the dying.
I have witnessed the soul rising from the body several times and there is definitely a visual (the soul moving out of the body) when the soul leaves. I accompanied my father-in-law on a shamanic journey just a few days prior to his souls passing and he was very surprised about all the options we have. How death is so negotiable. There isn’t just a heaven or hell, it’s not black or white. He asked several times why we are not taught about the different worlds. I really did not have an answer for him, and his question has been on my mind ever since.
What I have learned about life recently is that we do not live our purpose. Many keep themselves caged, fear of being our authentic selves. We need to do the following:
- To celebrate, celebrate each moment.
- To live your souls path, allowing your soul to shine.
- To love, yourself and others like you have never loved before.
- Live in the present moment, because you are not living this life if you are constantly worried (living in the future) or living in depression (living in the past).
- To find peace now and death will be peaceful.
The soul has been my main focus for some time now. I do many soul readings for people and I have found it very intriguing yet sad how many souls are kept captive or hidden, not allowed to shine, to love unconditionally. As people we need to start living, learning our lessons along the way, enjoying every moment. Death is a gift, no matter how hard. Death is a new birth yet we treat it like a plague. My final words are to celebrate life, death and all the lessons along the way, because life really is a gift.
by Angela Blaha | Dec 23, 2013 | Spiritual
About a year ago my family was forced to clean out the belonging of my Mom and Dad, while doing so I came across my Dad’s metal water witching rods. I immediately grabbed them and asked if anyone else was interested in them, no one wanted the rusty old things so I took them home. Not knowing why I would even want such rusted old things, I placed them on a ledge in the sunroom of my house. I am not a collector of old items, but for some reason these rods called out to me and I just had to have them. I remember my Dad bringing them out of the shed once in a while to find water and to show off his unbelievable talent in using them, they were very intriguing to me.
Recently, I saw a class on dowsing and immediately signed up. This is a year of exploring and learning (or rather remembering) for me. I went to class expecting to learn how to clear a house of energies that do not belong to the owners of the home. What I learned went way beyond a simple clearing.
Dowsing is really about getting in touch with the energies that not only live all around us but the divine energy that lives within us. It is so much more than using rods to find energy, it is about understanding your thoughts and actions and how everything works together to create the lives we want to live. When we allow stress to come into our lives we fill and surround ourselves with weakening energies. When we fill and surround ourselves with positive thoughts and actions we fill our lives with healing, joyful energies.
My first dowsing I did for my husband’s parents, they are both very ill and I wanted to make sure that they were living in a positive energy filled area. I must admit I did find energies that did not belong to them, which I healed, cleared and sent to the light. What I really found was beautiful angel energy waiting to transition my father-in-law to the ether world. It was such a beautiful experience.
It was very comforting to me to find such a peaceful and joyous presence in their home. I have talked with my father-in-law a few times about death and dying and it was almost overwhelming to know that an angel is there to help in the process.
I find it ironic that I would be writing this piece at Christmas, the time of birth and only a few days after the winter solstice. I’m sure there is a bigger understanding waiting for my family and I, but for now I will just rejoice in the knowing that there is always an angelic energy with us when we transition.
I am so grateful for learning all about dowsing and am ready to share the benefits of energy finding with all of you. I will be adding it to the many energy healings I do, if you are interested in having your home dowsed please send an e-mail to [email protected]
Blessings to you all!
