I remember the first day I went into silence, it feels like it was yesterday. I was filled with anticipation of going deep within, to experience silence like I had never experienced it before. I was a bit nervous to go so deep within myself, that I actually made myself sick a few days before I was scheduled to leave for the event.
I was a ball of emotions, none of which I could identify with. It was as if they were new emotions, or old emotions that had a new layer to them. I rarely get nervous, but I have to admit I was nervous about the silence. Like you, I live in a very loud and noisy world.
The nervousness continued upon arrival, as I was entering a place with new faces, not knowing any of the other people attending this silent event. The thing I thought would be a saving paradigm was that we would be silent, so there was no room for small talk or getting to know people. Just silence!
Much to my surprise there was some sort of underlying knowingness with the other participants, like we had known each other for years. There was no room for small talk as there was deep and expansive conversation to experience. We all seemed to be on the same path to enlightenment or at least to understand ourselves better and the reasons we exist.
What I learned from this experience was that I yearned for the silence, silent meditations are now a regular part of my daily life. I yearn for the moments of silence so I can explore an even deeper level of who I am. My first experience was mind blowing to say the least.
This experience was life changing and with every change comes new opportunity to open up to my path, my journey and my truth. I hope you join me for an experiential experience into the ultra depths of YOU.
The last few days have been extra pleasant, as the energy of the universe has blanketed us with an energetic addition to the layer of the grid systems.
What I mean by that is this: during the last few days I have witnessed the layers of dimension that have come into my awareness and the intention of each of the frequencies or vibrations they hold. I also witness what my intent is with the frequencies or vibrations and how I have aligned with them.
What the frequency of separation or third dimensional energy has taught me is that we come to earth knowing that we will forget. We come knowing as a soul that everything we have experienced prior to choosing to come to earth will be erased from our memory bank so that we may again choose what we want to experience. We come to earth knowing that we will experience our belief patterns, our thought patterns, we will be programmed and we will feel our emotions or lack of all of them. This is the intent of the energy, frequency or vibration of third dimensional energy. The intent of third dimensional frequency is not bad or wrong, rather it is an experience to explore and to experience.
Third dimensional frequency or vibration is an experience in understanding of ourselves. It teaches us how we choose to experience our thoughts, emotions, feelings, actions. How we understand the body, our mental processes, our emotions and how to integrate the soul into this frequency.
I also learned that if I choose to leave the third dimensional vibration of the body, mind and soul, then I need to expand into something else. Maybe I choose fifth dimensional frequency or sixth or beyond. The choices are infinite are always mine. Since my quest of full remembrance has been a process I am choosing to explore this frequency. My first step in this process is awareness.
I know at some intrinsic level of wisdom that remembering is available and I do not waver in this theory. How to match my vibration to this knowing is what I am expanding into and it seems to come in layers. It seems I need to experience many frequencies along the way. It is a fun adventure as I have explored many different vibrations within the last week. I have not made logical sense of all of them yet, but I am sure that will come with time.
In the mean while, enjoy the energy!
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With each New Year come new promises of hope. An illusive energy where I set big goals and make big plans. A space where dreams, wants and desires are held with anticipation.
2016 promises all this illusive energy and more.
Looking forward, the energy brings a newfound sense of confidence. An energy telling me to become aware of the vibration of the word, “boldness”.
I hear, live boldly and with passion. Be passionate, as passion sets the dormant nature of human beings on fire, this is how to make change
I feel this energy almost wanting to push me off the cliff I have been adventuring towards for some time now. A cliff that is steep and looks dangerous, a perception only a slight wrong step would change.
A cliff with a few sharp edges which mostly presents a straight downward descent. If I were to jump off this cliff I know and trust a bottom would appear as I trust in who I am, but I question my survival of the fall.
I hear the cliff telling me to speak and be my truth, but to do it with love as this human race has suffered so much and it is time to bring peace and happiness into their lives. I hear the cliff saying to be respectful of the people and the words of the new energy, it is the vibration of the words that raise people from the throws of time.
I hear the cliff telling me to be compassionate, yet never at the expense of someone else. To yell louder if I need to so someone hears my truth as I descend. And never to give up on love for it will heal the world.
I hear this year will be one of courageous times, none that I have experienced before in this lifetime. Yet it is time, time to be bold and stand up for what is right action according to love. Stand up and be heard for the echo’s of the valley will carry for miles.
So, prepare for the boldness and the fire of your passions, because this is the year!
I know for a fact that starseeds have a difficult time with the emotional body and understanding the emotions. These emotions can change a perceptive thought within a millisecond and my whole world is turned upside down.
I feel like an emotional rollercoaster sometimes!
The emotions have moves I do not understand and they do not match the logic of my left-brain. So my left and right brain seem to be in a continuous battle for control, neither of them ever wins, rather the battle continues and overtime I give up, falling deeper and deeper into the trap of separation.
As a starseed I have worked almost continuously to understand the duality of such rigorous strain on the emotional body. I have even gone into categorizing the emotions and listing the extremes of what one emotion brings to the table. Trying relentlessly to connect it to some sort of wisdom or knowledge.
Really that is all the left-brain wants is to understand the emotional body, to put some sort of knowledge to what is being felt so it can help with this experience in some way.
I have been told time and time again to remove the left-brain, the ego. To put it outside of myself so it would stop asking questions. I did this for a period of time and it seemed to obey, but what I noticed was that it kept me more in separation theory than helping me to move forward on this spiritual journey.
So I brought it back and asked it what it needed. All it told me was that it wanted to help but needed to be fed some type of knowledge to help arrange the emotions and the feeling attached to the words so healing and happiness could reside.
I seriously wondered why I did not do this earlier in my life, who would have thought to just ask? Duh!
There are many emotions that are still illusive to me and then to add to the confusion there are false words, which have no meaning and keep me in wonder what it really means or if the meaning is to keep me under a false precept? As a starseed the language combined with the emotions and explanation of the feelings keep me busy. I have a real quest to understand this human experience far greater than what is on the surface.
I love how eloquently, yet almost destructive this planet is with all of its duality. It is a complex puzzle and may feel like it will take an eternity to completely understand. Something I know the wisdom of remembering holds within its clutch. Yet, I will continue to understand the emotions and to feed the brain knowledge, all the while moving toward to a unified self.
Remembering who I am at the core is much more difficult than I had anticipated. I am not a patient person and so when I ask for something I want it immediately. I know I am not alone in this pursuit of immediate response, as I know you can relate.
I have learned that the remembering of love and healing comes slowly, or at least more slowly than what I want. It seems to come when I least expect it and when it comes it either comes brutally or so very kind and gentle. Either way it comes I usually get the point!
For instance I recently had a remembering when I was in Colorado. I remembered I had brought people to a sacred place in the mountains to heal. I thought I was doing a good thing, but the people I brought there apparently had an alternative motive and destruction was a part of their plan. When I remembered what had happened my emotions became carried away with my perceived actions, creating a sense in me that I had done something wrong. My perception was that Mother Earth, in its alignment with galaxies beyond this one could help heal people and their habitual patterns. What I did not take into consideration was people’s willingness to allow healing to take place. I also learned that fear will override even the best of intentions.
Since this experience in Colorado I have learned that many people really enjoy being or believing that they are victims, that what happens to them is totally out of control. They allow fear to play games with their internal wisdom, what they know deep down within them to be their truth. Creating all kinds of scenarios which are linked to past perceptions, patterns and belief systems creating a false sense of who they are.
As a starseed I know and understand that everything is within our control and that we are responsible for our thoughts, actions, words, etc. We are responsible for our own remembering of who we are at our core. In my book: Show Me How to Remember My Power through Self-love and Forgiveness”, St. Germaine reminds us to love ourselves unconditionally, no matter what we remember.
I do know for certain that I am love!
I do remember how amazing pure love is and I feel it when I channel. Sometimes it is so mesmerizing that I do not want to return from this state of being pure love as I know within my being that that feeling is what a starseed is. Pure love is the core of who we are as well as every other being, but at times I want so desperately to return to that pure love as I know it is where I belong. When I am in the moment of pure love, with the wisdom of this essence, I am home, home is not a place where I go to, rather it is a place of being.
When I remember that I am a being of love the whole dynamic of who I am changes, my response to people change, my perception about events change, the way I walk even changes. I do remember the energy of love and that is really what a starseed in a human body means to me. It does not matter what human functions I can do, rather it is a form of being.
