by Angela Blaha | Aug 20, 2015 | Coaching, Emotions, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Spiritual
I had been anticipating much joy of my recent silent retreat for months, I couldn’t wait to be in silence, to go so deep within myself that I would become lost. This is something I had been craving for a very long time now.
Little did I know it would be so much more than just a simple craving!
I contracted strep throat infection the Friday before I left for my trip, I was so sick. It was the sickest I have been since my college years. My entire throat was white with infection; I ran a fever, headache, etc. I thought seriously about not going to the retreat as I was driving over 13 hours and I really did not want to infect others.
The morning I was scheduled to leave, I again thought I should not go, but I somehow knew and understood that this infection was my body fighting against change. Cell memory that needed to be released and healed yet was so eager to hang on to what it was comfortable with. I made the decision to pack up my clothes and to attend no matter what was trying to stop me, determined to transform even in the face of physical illness.
The first day of the retreat was zen silence, which meant no eye contact along with no talking or writing. Just being with myself. It was perfect, exactly what I was hoping for. There was no need for odd communication of any kind with total strangers. I loved every minute of it.
It was a total stripping down of myself, which was my intent. Strip away what is no longer needed or useful. I spent the day doing a lot of crying, not much thought, just being present with nature and listening to the soul.
The following days were equally as transformative, day two was spent with ridding the body of cell memory done via massage, a Lakota sweat, and lithium hot springs. I felt new again and the body felt much pleasure.
The third day was spent with healing, feeling a familiarity to Crestone, I knew I had been there before in some other life and that I needed to heal the earth and my actions of that lifetime. It all became evident with the remembering of that life and perceived actions of good will, which did not turn out that way. This day was spent with so many blessing and such deep healing with spirit, the land and myself.
Day four and five were filled with rejuvenation, stepping fully into my abilities and demonstrating them. Making new connections with soul family at the retreat and plans for the future.
Many blessings to all of you!
Here is an amazing spirit photo from Crestone!
by Angela Blaha | Jul 2, 2015 | Coaching, Communication, Emotions, energy, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Wellness
It begins to rain as I sit to write this blog. Some hate rainy days; I love rainy, cloudy days as they have a tendency to make me go inward. Something I need to do right now as this creation time for me is slipping away with no real creation at hand.
As I sit with my eyes closed, I can sense the flashes of the lightening. I know the thunder will start soon and right on queue it shakes the earth with its mighty boom. The sound of thunder continues to roll through, like a mantra it encourages me to go deeper. Enticing me to spend time with my soul and to feel the wonder of the earth and all of her beauty. As the raindrops begin to fall, I hear the splashing pings on my roof, the flashes of light and thunder continue. As I take a deep breath I settle into a peaceful place where there is nothing but the sounds of nature and the quietness she brings. I notice a child like essence begin to flow out of me as I wonder what it would feel like to stomp my foot in the puddle as I did when I was younger.
As my mind begins to wonder to my list of chores Mother Nature once again sends a gentle reminder of thunder to move away from the list, to experience her beauty and further within. The birds begin to sing their song of praise and I can imagine in my mind’s eye how they are fluffing their feathers in the gentle rain as it cleanses their bodies.
As I bring my awareness to the sound of the rain drops on the roof, then on the deck, then on the leaves of the plants near by, I again notice this child like essence who wants to come out to play yet I mentally tell myself not to splash in that puddle. I play this mental game with myself with notions to splash or not to splash.
I begin to notice that I hear an entire orchestra playing, sounds of thunder and how it rolls through the sky, splashing sounds as the water hits the multitude of surfaces around me. I envision the rain cleaning and cleansing the air, removing the dust from the leaves and nurturing the earth in a way that is simply a wonder and hard to find words to create the vision I am in right now.
I am in awe of the creation of it all. I have been feeling a bit stuck lately in my creations and I wonder how I can be feeling that way when such beauty has been created right before me. I have no excuses, as I am the creator of everything I do. If Source can create such wonder for me to live in then I need not have excuses of my own creation.
Thank you mother earth for reminding me of how simple life really is and that no matter what we perceive to be happening that we can return to such simplicity at any given moment.
I give thanks to Mother Nature today, as she apparently knew I needed to go inward to where the real essence of whom I am resides. She once again has provided the opportunity to settle inward with the perfect mantra and sounds for my meditation and writings today.
by Angela Blaha | Jun 24, 2015 | Emotions, Featured Events, Intuition
Today, I sense the presence of my Mother.
The memories of her flood in as this is the second time this week I am reminded of her as tears begin to swell in my eyes. I am not one to spend too much time grieving as I am able to see, hear and regularly converse with passed loved one’s. However, I have not been able to communicate with my Mother since the day she died. I have often wondered where she went or what she has been doing, I assumed she went back to the star from which she came.
Today her presence is overwhelming and I am jolted into grief and missing her. I do not feel anxiety, rather sheer loneliness of her human presence. I have wondered often where she has been over the two years since her transition, I take a deep breath and go into my soul space. My soul space is where I am able to connect with all beings. She does not talk, she simply smiles and I can feel her sending me love.
I did not really grieve my mothers death after the funeral as most of my grieving was done before she died. She gave herself the gift of Alzheimer’s and taught me so much about the soul and how it moves in and out of the body with this disease. So when the day came for the funeral it seamed all most easy, as some called it a blessing, as there was no more pain and suffering as we watched our mother deteriorate right before our eyes.
But now two years later I am feeling lonely and miss her kind words, her beautiful smile and her kisses. I am in awe with her presence now and it seems I am in a wave of the grieving process. As that is how grief works, the emotions, the memories, they come in waves and the emotions are mixed within the waves. I ask, “why now” after all this time, I do not hear an answer, rather I feel a simple loving presence. Some how the words, the answers, the justification that I deem necessary all seem so dismal as I bask in the simple loving presence of her essence.
For now I am thankful that she has made her presence known to me and I just soak in the humbling emotions of love and compassion, grace and peace of her.
I encourage you to leave your own messages of your grieving process as shared experiences are sometime so comforting.
by Angela Blaha | Dec 4, 2014 | Intuition
Wow! This is a loaded thought.
I giggle to myself as this was happening in a very big way about 4 years ago for me. It seemed everyone I talked to would keep telling me to just, “take the leap” and trust that the ground will appear. I remember I was thinking to myself how do I trust this much? I used to be a pretty conservative person when it came to trusting that what I wanted and desired would just happen for me. Little did I know or understand that it really does happen when you get your wants, dreams and desires clear in your mind and heart.
I even read books on trusting and taking the leap. One of the best books is a little book called, “Taking the Leap” by Pema Chodron.
I used to believe that trust was something very illusive, that I had trusted so many times and each time I was hurt. There were wounds that had to heal and I had to trust myself enough to heal them, no matter how painful I perceived it to be. That was the old way of thinking, now my belief is that trust is all about me, trusting myself to understand and to allow others and things to be as they are, where they are. Not trying to create something for myself or to expect something from someone else. I no longer need or even want that. I look to myself and especially my higher self for trust, love, knowing when to leap and when to stay on solid ground.
For me, knowing when to take the leap has to do with discipline. Discipline to walk my truth, living my own process and trusting that my higher self really does know what is for my highest good and joy. Discipline to know what it really means to meditate, to trust my intuitive hits when they come and to love who I am no matter what I do, how I am or who I am with. When I look into my eyes I trust that my soul will appear and teach me something new every single time I look. Disciplined enough to discern everything and to ask what that means to me, without judgment of others or myself. I try to view everything as an experience instead of a right way or wrong way.
After all I am the one living this life and I choose love, joy and bliss!
Of course we can choose to stay in our anxiety riddened thinking patterns or we can make a conscious decision to take the leap. Knowing that we have the wisdom and understanding to know that we would not create total chaos in our own lives but rather gently taking leaps of faith creating a blissful life. So go ahead, feel the fear but take the leap. Who knows what good will come of it!
by Angela Blaha | Oct 20, 2014 | Intuition
Intuition is the wisdom formed by feeling and instinct – a gift of knowing without reasoning…
Angela Ahrendts
Most of us spend the majority of our lives denying and ignoring our innate intuitive abilities.
We all are born with varying levels of intuitive abilities. Unfortunately, many of us are taught from an early age to deny and ignore the small inner voice our intuition uses to communicate truth and wisdom with us.
The good news is that you can nurture and develop your innate intuitive capabilities with attention, guidance and practice.
If you’re ready to begin saying “yes” to your intuition, the Living Your Intuition course by Angela Blaha will help you to begin nurturing your innate intuitive abilities.
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