by Angela Blaha | Aug 20, 2015 | Coaching, Emotions, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Spiritual
I had been anticipating much joy of my recent silent retreat for months, I couldn’t wait to be in silence, to go so deep within myself that I would become lost. This is something I had been craving for a very long time now.
Little did I know it would be so much more than just a simple craving!
I contracted strep throat infection the Friday before I left for my trip, I was so sick. It was the sickest I have been since my college years. My entire throat was white with infection; I ran a fever, headache, etc. I thought seriously about not going to the retreat as I was driving over 13 hours and I really did not want to infect others.
The morning I was scheduled to leave, I again thought I should not go, but I somehow knew and understood that this infection was my body fighting against change. Cell memory that needed to be released and healed yet was so eager to hang on to what it was comfortable with. I made the decision to pack up my clothes and to attend no matter what was trying to stop me, determined to transform even in the face of physical illness.
The first day of the retreat was zen silence, which meant no eye contact along with no talking or writing. Just being with myself. It was perfect, exactly what I was hoping for. There was no need for odd communication of any kind with total strangers. I loved every minute of it.
It was a total stripping down of myself, which was my intent. Strip away what is no longer needed or useful. I spent the day doing a lot of crying, not much thought, just being present with nature and listening to the soul.
The following days were equally as transformative, day two was spent with ridding the body of cell memory done via massage, a Lakota sweat, and lithium hot springs. I felt new again and the body felt much pleasure.
The third day was spent with healing, feeling a familiarity to Crestone, I knew I had been there before in some other life and that I needed to heal the earth and my actions of that lifetime. It all became evident with the remembering of that life and perceived actions of good will, which did not turn out that way. This day was spent with so many blessing and such deep healing with spirit, the land and myself.
Day four and five were filled with rejuvenation, stepping fully into my abilities and demonstrating them. Making new connections with soul family at the retreat and plans for the future.
Many blessings to all of you!
Here is an amazing spirit photo from Crestone!
by Angela Blaha | Jul 2, 2015 | Coaching, Communication, Emotions, energy, Intuition, Meditation, Positive Psychology, Soul, Wellness
It begins to rain as I sit to write this blog. Some hate rainy days; I love rainy, cloudy days as they have a tendency to make me go inward. Something I need to do right now as this creation time for me is slipping away with no real creation at hand.
As I sit with my eyes closed, I can sense the flashes of the lightening. I know the thunder will start soon and right on queue it shakes the earth with its mighty boom. The sound of thunder continues to roll through, like a mantra it encourages me to go deeper. Enticing me to spend time with my soul and to feel the wonder of the earth and all of her beauty. As the raindrops begin to fall, I hear the splashing pings on my roof, the flashes of light and thunder continue. As I take a deep breath I settle into a peaceful place where there is nothing but the sounds of nature and the quietness she brings. I notice a child like essence begin to flow out of me as I wonder what it would feel like to stomp my foot in the puddle as I did when I was younger.
As my mind begins to wonder to my list of chores Mother Nature once again sends a gentle reminder of thunder to move away from the list, to experience her beauty and further within. The birds begin to sing their song of praise and I can imagine in my mind’s eye how they are fluffing their feathers in the gentle rain as it cleanses their bodies.
As I bring my awareness to the sound of the rain drops on the roof, then on the deck, then on the leaves of the plants near by, I again notice this child like essence who wants to come out to play yet I mentally tell myself not to splash in that puddle. I play this mental game with myself with notions to splash or not to splash.
I begin to notice that I hear an entire orchestra playing, sounds of thunder and how it rolls through the sky, splashing sounds as the water hits the multitude of surfaces around me. I envision the rain cleaning and cleansing the air, removing the dust from the leaves and nurturing the earth in a way that is simply a wonder and hard to find words to create the vision I am in right now.
I am in awe of the creation of it all. I have been feeling a bit stuck lately in my creations and I wonder how I can be feeling that way when such beauty has been created right before me. I have no excuses, as I am the creator of everything I do. If Source can create such wonder for me to live in then I need not have excuses of my own creation.
Thank you mother earth for reminding me of how simple life really is and that no matter what we perceive to be happening that we can return to such simplicity at any given moment.
I give thanks to Mother Nature today, as she apparently knew I needed to go inward to where the real essence of whom I am resides. She once again has provided the opportunity to settle inward with the perfect mantra and sounds for my meditation and writings today.
by Angela Blaha | Jun 24, 2015 | Emotions, Featured Events, Intuition
Today, I sense the presence of my Mother.
The memories of her flood in as this is the second time this week I am reminded of her as tears begin to swell in my eyes. I am not one to spend too much time grieving as I am able to see, hear and regularly converse with passed loved one’s. However, I have not been able to communicate with my Mother since the day she died. I have often wondered where she went or what she has been doing, I assumed she went back to the star from which she came.
Today her presence is overwhelming and I am jolted into grief and missing her. I do not feel anxiety, rather sheer loneliness of her human presence. I have wondered often where she has been over the two years since her transition, I take a deep breath and go into my soul space. My soul space is where I am able to connect with all beings. She does not talk, she simply smiles and I can feel her sending me love.
I did not really grieve my mothers death after the funeral as most of my grieving was done before she died. She gave herself the gift of Alzheimer’s and taught me so much about the soul and how it moves in and out of the body with this disease. So when the day came for the funeral it seamed all most easy, as some called it a blessing, as there was no more pain and suffering as we watched our mother deteriorate right before our eyes.
But now two years later I am feeling lonely and miss her kind words, her beautiful smile and her kisses. I am in awe with her presence now and it seems I am in a wave of the grieving process. As that is how grief works, the emotions, the memories, they come in waves and the emotions are mixed within the waves. I ask, “why now” after all this time, I do not hear an answer, rather I feel a simple loving presence. Some how the words, the answers, the justification that I deem necessary all seem so dismal as I bask in the simple loving presence of her essence.
For now I am thankful that she has made her presence known to me and I just soak in the humbling emotions of love and compassion, grace and peace of her.
I encourage you to leave your own messages of your grieving process as shared experiences are sometime so comforting.
by Angela Blaha | May 27, 2015 | Coaching, Emotions, Featured Events
Why do we have guilt?
How many of us have a coach or mentor and don’t tell anyone that you have a coach or mentor?
How many CEO’s of very large companies have Coaches or Mentor to help them be exceptional people?
All of the CEO’s do! For some it is mandatory. Why?
The point is we all need help now and then. When we have guilt about what we do or what we want to do, guilt stops us in our tracks hamper our ability to be exceptional people. It is sometime hard to understand we feel bad over wanting to be successful, no matter what our definition of success is. Rarely are we taught that it is our responsibility as humans to be successful. Changing our old thinking habits about success can be hard and we sometimes make change harder than it needs to be. When we have a coach or mentor, who are not emotionally attached to our wants, needs or desires and may have the ability to see our grand plans for our lives in a different manner. Making our change process much simpler than we had thought.
Feeling guilty about what we want, need or desire should not be something to feel guilt over. And asking for help should not be guilt ridden either. We live in a society with millions of other people, yet we sometimes feel very lonely.
In my book, Show Me How to Remember Your Power through Self-love and Forgiveness we discuss guilt at a soul level. How guilt stops us or holds us back from being who we came to earth to be. When we do not walk our path, we feel guilty. Yet when we do walk our path, we feel guilty. Through self-love we can overcome any of the reasons we feel guilt. It is very simple to release ourselves of guilt if we choose to do so. When we choose to accept ourself as we are there is no guilt, no shame, no blame, no anger, only love.
So for the next 10 minutes, sit back and simply allow yourself to be YOU, the beautiful soul that you are.
Freedom from guilt comes with self-love and forgiveness. We need to stop punishing ourselves and love who we are. Lets leave our guilt at the door, pick a path and create what we want from our heart. Stop beating ourselves up over what we did or didn’t do.
Be happy!
If you need help being happy contact Angela about coaching or mentoring by e-mail: [email protected] or visit https://angelablaha.com/life-wellness-coaching
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by Angela Blaha | Apr 2, 2015 | Emotions
July 24, 2013 by Angela
Surrender is a scary word. It’s a very powerful word for me, even the thought of the word sends chills down my arms. For me, surrender means to give up control, all control. It raises all sorts of emotions for me, like panic, fear, loss, peace, and even joy. Although it is pretty scary to think about giving in, at the same time there’s a sense of peace of not having to be in charge. To just let go. There’s a real sense of freedom to letting go.
To surrender, to give in, to loose all control, I’m pretty sure I have never really don’t that, ever! How does one completely surrender?
I know that is what I need to do and it’s why I’m laying here on my back with stitches, no lifting, bending or twisting for 3 months. So how do I begin to surrender, what is the first step? And what am I surrendering to?
I begin my journey to surrender by becoming aware, the word surrender is not a common word I use, nor do I hear it used very often. However, one morning during meditation it popped into my head and has remained there for some time now. I work with it for a while, leave it and then return. It seems to be such a huge concept that I cannot deal with it all at once, so I simply leave it and return when the time is right.
Awareness is always the first step in anything I do. I am aware that I need to surrender, but to what am I surrendering? To God, myself, my soul, my life, what? All of the above, probably.
Next, I meditate. I have been meditating on the word. Asking all kinds of questions around the concept. Today I finally received a message. To focus on what I really want‚ really that’s it, that’s all I have to do to surrender? Most likely not, but for today it is what I have to do. So I put my goals, desires and wishes down on paper. Now I wait!
Until further information is received, that’s all I can do. Wait! It’s almost a big a word as surrender. I’m not very patient, so this is hard. But what do I wait for? I wait for the opportunities to reveal themselves. And when the opportunities reveal themselves, then I allow them to take shape. I allow them to present themselves and to actually act on them. When opportunities present themselves, we question whether it’s the right thing to do, or if this is just my ego telling me I should do it. Take the risk, what is there to loose? I can hear many of you saying OMG or cringing at the thought of taking the risk. But really what do you have to loose? Instead think about all that you will gain by surrendering and taking a new risk.
In retrospect, surrender really isn’t that scary of a word. When we put everything into a positive perspective and break it down into workable format, everything can be simplified to fit who we are. Just surrender, hand things over to spirit and take the risk.
